Today, I felt that I would like to update you on our October 18th Celebration and a few other things.
We had a Great time together…Watched Fast and Furious 7, and made Pizza (I make the dough, they make their own pizza), and of course we had our toast. Then my oldest stayed the night (nice!!!), and we were able to have a long overdue talk.
This past week has been a trying one (I know it is Wednesday, I mean since last Wednesday)… My youngest is 19 and likes to think showing no emotion and being strong all the time is how life should be lived, had something happen in my child’s upper neck, that at first I thought must be the way it was slept on. But alas..that was not it, because even when there was absolutely no movement…the pain would shoot at random. Tried to set up a trip to the doctor…but that was a..No Go! So it is still being dealt with…pain is intermittent. It is hard to see your child in such pain, and be unable to do anything to make it better…As a Mom, we like to make things better.
My middle child is having a hard time with job and finances, and tries so hard to make everything work. Just needs to calm down and relax a bit. Want to help, but don’t have the resources necessary! Just trying to be supportive.
My oldest is making decisions that I wish I could change, but as a parent you can only give advice and step back, let them make their own decisions and be there to help them if they need you…Hard when they are no longer small enough to do for them.
So now to me. I have been trying to find work to do in my home, but the options are so very limited. P.T.S.D., and the way it is affecting me, is hard to deal with, especially when you need money to survive.
An opportunity presented itself, and I jumped right on it…waited…got a return email…needed to take an online test…did not have a computer that allowed what they needed…borrowed one…took the test…did ok I guess, as I got a return email to go forward. By this time the computer I borrowed was no longer here…tried on my small computer…could not finish, because of said computer…needless to say…got another email stating…they were looking elsewhere for the right fit.
Ok…Onward and upward…thats all I can say. I will not give up…not on my children…not in my job search…and most definitely, Not in my Recovery!!!
Thanks for Hearing! (sorry not pictures today)